This October 15th seems so surreal. To be one month home with our newest child yet not having an infant to nurse and comfort. To know that she is a fulfillment of God’s plan for us but to grieve the great loss of her mother. I know that they do not recognize this date in… [Read More]
Mother’s Day, Both Bitter & Sweet
This mother’s day has been so deeply contradictory. It has been both amazingly joyful and breathtakingly sad. I have struggled with missing my mother and and simultaneously celebrating being a mom. Missing a daughter I have not yet met and praying for a mother that gave the ultimate sacrifice for her child. It’s like a… [Read More]
How Do You Remember? Pregnancy & Infant Loss Remembrance Day
October 15th is Pregnancy and Infant Loss remembrance day. A day set aside to honor and publicly acknowledge our fearfully and wonderfully made babies that lived in our wombs and in our hearts. Miscarriage occurs in one and four women and is still a socially taboo subject but it doesn’t have to be. There are… [Read More]
The Creeping Pain of Pregnancy Loss
I have three children. Three beautiful, amazing, wonderful children here on earth. I have others on the other side of the rainbow. Each successful pregnancy bookended by loss. Except the last. I knew after he was born that my journey with infertility and loss was over. He was the bright ending to 10 years of… [Read More]