This October 15th seems so surreal. To be one month home with our newest child yet not having an infant to nurse and comfort. To know that she is a fulfillment of God’s plan for us but to grieve the great loss of her mother. I know that they do not recognize this date in China but I would guess that her mother has her own “loss” anniversary to remember.
In some ways, Lydia is a “rainbow” baby. I had concieved twins in the spring of 2011 and in June of 2011, I found out that I had lost both of my beautiful rainbow babies. It was a devastating loss and would be many months before I felt like “trying” again. Little did I know that half way around the world, somewhere in a bassinet in China, a little girl would be born. That her life would take a path different than God would have planned but that he would redeem not only the loss in my heart but also the loss in her’s by joining us together as a forever family.
If you have experienced a pregnancy loss, infant loss or an abortion and would like to share your story with me, please leave a comment below. There is great healing in remembering our babies together. If you are in need of additional support, please join my online Facebook support group Wishing for Rainbows.