As I sat across from the new RE (reproductive endocrinologist) yesterday, she reviewed my charts from the previous specialist and my regular OB. She prattled off some typical numbers for my FSH, progesterone, estradiol levels looked up and said, “Yes, just as I thought, I would say that you are suffering from typical “ovarian ageing.”
I am sure that she said some other things after that but all I kept thinking in my head was, “I’ve got old eggs.” Now, this is not new information to me. When we went through infertility treatments with my daughter they suspected that my luteal phase defect was due to ovarian ageing but up until this point the only conclusive evidence was that my right ovary was no longer producing eggs. However, to hear it being said aloud was disheartening. To know that my body is weakening in its fertility and that my child bearing days are nearing an end is simply sad.
The good news, however, is that even though my eggs are old, my doctor does believe that I still have a chance to become pregnant. It just wont be the old fashion way. So now, we are back to paying and praying, developing a treatment plan and deciding which (if any) of the suggested interventions to follow.
So for now, I will just hold on to the knowledge that my eggs are just old and not broken.
Our God is a God of Possibilities. Old eggs are nothing for Him.
Totally agree with Connie. Look at Sarai! she was like 90 — THOSE are old eggs!
*hugs*
He has a plan 🙂
“However, to hear it being said aloud was disheartening. To know that my body is weakening in its fertility and that my child bearing days are nearing an end is simply sad.”
These words struck a cord with me, not in regard to child bearing, but hearing out loud from someone else that my body is weak. {a car crash made me weak} I used to be strong and active and thought I could do anything. But hearing those words made me feel inferior. Don’t feel bad for having old eggs 🙂
I’ve struggled with a wide spectrum of feelings. Sadness, anger, guilt…but I’ve chosen to forgive the young man who caused the accident. It took a lot of prayer and time. I had to remind myself that He has a plan for me and if He brings me to it, He’ll bring me through it! Hang in there!
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I was VERY glad when I hit early menopause–it frees you from so much. But it was also sad because I then knew I would never be pregnant again. Our bodies are living miracles, but they’re also changing miracles.