This October 15th seems so surreal. To be one month home with our newest child yet not having an infant to nurse and comfort. To know that she is a fulfillment of God’s plan for us but to grieve the great loss of her mother. I know that they do not recognize this date in… [Read More]
Mother’s Day, Both Bitter & Sweet
This mother’s day has been so deeply contradictory. It has been both amazingly joyful and breathtakingly sad. I have struggled with missing my mother and and simultaneously celebrating being a mom. Missing a daughter I have not yet met and praying for a mother that gave the ultimate sacrifice for her child. It’s like a… [Read More]
How Do You Remember? Pregnancy & Infant Loss Remembrance Day
October 15th is Pregnancy and Infant Loss remembrance day. A day set aside to honor and publicly acknowledge our fearfully and wonderfully made babies that lived in our wombs and in our hearts. Miscarriage occurs in one and four women and is still a socially taboo subject but it doesn’t have to be. There are… [Read More]
The Creeping Pain of Pregnancy Loss
I have three children. Three beautiful, amazing, wonderful children here on earth. I have others on the other side of the rainbow. Each successful pregnancy bookended by loss. Except the last. I knew after he was born that my journey with infertility and loss was over. He was the bright ending to 10 years of… [Read More]
For those still waiting…Know you are heard
When At Home Guest Post: Finding Hope Series #Infertility
Today I have been given the amazing opportunity to share our Infertility and Loss journey in the Finding Hope Series over at When At Home. Here is an excerpt from my post: Our family should feel complete. One boy, one girl. Perfection. Only infertility doesn’t resolve itself with the birth of a child. The counting, the trying, the hoping doesn’t magically… [Read More]
Wishing for Rainbows – Support for Moms
Four years ago, after another miscarriage, I had the amazing opportunity to start a ministry at our church for women dealing with primary infertility, secondary infertility and pregnancy loss. This group has been a wonderful part of my healing. They have supported me through several other miscarriages as well as my most recent miracle pregnancy… [Read More]
{Pregnancy} Pulling Out the Thorn
When I first started this blog, I had planned to write extensively about our desire for a 3rd child. I believed that this was one of the purposes of my blog and I looked forward to sharing our different but difficult journey. I started a series called Paying {Praying} for #3 in which I shared… [Read More]
Product Praise: Trying to Conceive Starter Kit
If you have read my blog for any amount of time, you probably know that I am infertile. I know, you are probably thinking, “what, that’s impossible. She has two beautiful children.” Unfortunately, my fertility (or lack there of) did not go away with the birth of my beautiful little angels. The truth is, I… [Read More]
Memorializing Our Losses – My Response to the Fox News Commentator Alan Colmes
Yesterday, a woman that I know through Hannah’s Heart (the infertility and pregnancy loss ministry that I run) posted a link to the Fox News radio show in which political commentator, Alan Colmes makes an absolutely offensive and distasteful remark regarding Republican presidential candidate Rick Santorium. If you haven’t seen (or heard) the clip, you can… [Read More]